Thursday, July 28th

So last night I went to drag queen bingo with a friend and a friend of a friend.  I was reluctant to go to DQB with this person because in truth I do not like them at all.  They are mercenary, self-involved and always dragging people down.  I told this to my friend but against my better judgment I went along since I would be going there anyway.  The person (the nicest thing I can say about this person is that one day she will unhinge her jaw and devour someone whole) sat between me and my friend,  turned her body away from me and started to have a conversation about the people in community with my friend.  The last time I went out with the devourer she monopolized the whole conversation and talked with my friend about their mutual community friends in the most unflattering way.  So cutting me out of the conversation and basically just running people down.   Before we went into the bar I asked if we could not talk about work but my request was ignored.  So when my friend asked me what I thought I said "I think I don't want to talk about community".
Which was met with silence, when I got up to get another beer, the two of them went outside to smoke and talk and left me alone in the bar for over 20 minutes.  I decided then and there that I would never go out with the two of them again. So the devourer left DQB early (such a relief) and my friend and I sat and finished bingo without much conversation. When we left the bar I let him know that I was not going to spend any of my social time with the devourer.  Just too much negative energy (on her part) and too much revulsion (on my part).  So he proceeded to tell me he saw a side of me that he never say before and said I was a hypocrite for asking that we not discuss community members since I gossip all the time.  Which is to a degree true, I do talk about my fellow community member and I do (in my mind) poke fun at their short comings or odd behaviors but I do not call people losers and ass-kissers like the devourer does. So today I was in inquiry about my behavior and I am going to try to be mindful of what I say about the people with whom I am living in community.